Beautiful Artwork Honoring Isaiah

Thank You to Sparrow Farm Creations for creating this beautiful print for Isaiah.  It turned out better than I pictured in my head.  Sparrow Farm Creations does this free of charge for baby loss parents and it is an amazing memorial and the woman who makes these has an awesome talent.  Thanks again, our little wall "shrine" for Isaiah is coming together nicely.  Everything I have made for him goes on the wall in the bedroom that would have been his nursery and will remain there until we move.  When other children are introduced into this family, they will have their big brother in their room with them watching over them always.

His Name in the Sand

While looking for ways to memorialize our son, I found a website through the Faces of Loss website called "To write their names in the sand".  I sent a request and waited for the artist to post the picture and I finally ordered the photo for myself and my family!  It turned out beautifully.  The names are written in Australia at sunset....all the names written are beautiful, but I find Isaiah's especially beautiful!



Conner Eugene Dennison

Conner Eugene Dennison was born sleeping today June 22, 2011.  He weighed just 1 pound 3 ounces and was 11 inches long.  Our little nephew that we will never meet in this life.  We miss you already. 

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

Dear Conner,

Aunt Kiley and Uncle Aaron hope that when you opened you eyes for the first time in heaven you saw the Lord.  We also hope that you are playing with our son, your cousin, Isaiah and his brother or sister and enjoying your time together waiting for each of your mommys and daddys to get there to see you.  We loved you the minute we knew about you and you will forever be a part of our lives and our story as our nephew.  We will miss you and cherish the memory of you always.

Love, Aunt Kiley and Uncle Aaron

Baby Dennison

Today we learned that our nephew passed away sometime over this past weekend.  He was 23 weeks along and his heart stopped and his mommy couldn't feel him move anymore.  They are so heartbroken and I know exactly the range of emotions they are going through at this time.  It is a terrible kind of grief when you don't even get the chance to meet your baby.  I can't think if much else since I learned the news.  He was so loved already in his short life, his mommy and daddy truly will never be the same without him.  I hope that what I have been through allows me the ability to be the kind of help and comfort they need.  It is so tough to know what to say to them, because anything you hear is not good enough and doesn't bring your baby back! 

♥ ‎”There is, I am convinced, no picture that conveys in all its dreadfulness, a vision of sorrow, despairing, remediless, supreme. If I could paint such a picture, the canvas would show only a woman looking down at her empty arms.” -Charlotte Bronte

♥ ‎”If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.”

We will miss you baby boy.  I hope and pray that our children have met each other in heaven and will have great stories to tell us one day when we all get to reunite with them!

Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's Day to my wonderful husband.  Even though he doesn't have a child to hold today or to tell him that he is a great dad...he knows that one day when he gets to meet them they will tell him that and he will get to hold them!

We are going to enjoy this day together while remembering our children!

Viva Las Vegas

So tomorrow morning we leave for our first real vacation to Las Vegas!  We have only been on vacation with Aaron's family and we never had a honeymoon.  We splurged on a 4 day trip to Vegas after Isaiah's death, mostly to be away on the day he was due, but Aaron had finals to finish...so we were delayed a week! 

We are getting our vows renewed while we are out there since that is where we wanted to get married in the first place (but we were overruled by some grandparents).  We need the time away to be with one another, beacuse with work and school we see each other only once a week.  Some relaxing by the pool and sleeping in each morning will give us the break we need.  Most importantly, we will be together, just the two of us, for a change!

I will post pictures after we get back!

Today we would have met you...

Dear Isaiah,

Today is the day you were due to come met us.  This day will only come now when daddy and I make it to heaven.  We miss you every single day and we wish more than anything that things would have turned out so much differently.  We know you are with the Lord, your older brother or sister, daddy's grandma, and mommy's grandpa, I know they are keeping close watch over you.  I hope you like it there and I hope you aren't too sad that you never got to meet us.  We are trying really hard not to be too sad that we didn't get to meet you the way we planned, we are looking forward to meeting you in heaven.

We love you little man...

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go (The Dance-Garth Brooks)