Yesterday, October 15, was Worldwide Miscarriage, Stillbirth, and Infant Loss Day. I celebrated by wearing my "I am the Face" bracelet.
I have the light blue one, in honor of Isaiah. I didn't know the sex of the first baby we lost at 8 weeks, so I just got the color for the gender I knew. I also prayed about Isaiah yesterday ( as I do everyday and think of him everyday, but I prayed extra for him and his miscarried sibling yesterday).
It is days like this that we bring to the forefront of our minds the "what could have beens" I often wonder what it would be like to have those two babies. I know God's plan for me and my family is exactly as He planned it. God knew these "incidents" (tragedies) would happen to us, he knew that these events would draw Aaron and I closer in our marriage and our love for one another. He knew that Layla was destined for us. God doesn't do things by accident, it is all part of His grand plan for our lives. I knew as a child that I was going to be someones mother someday, who knew I'd have 3 children, and that 2 of the 3 would grow wings and leave for heaven before we could meet one another. I love all 3 of my children, here with me or gone before me.
God Bless all those mothers that cannot hold all their babies in their arms, those mothers whose babies are with the Lord.
Mommy and Daddy love you Isaiah David and Baby Aidt