I don't know what it is about this pregnancy that has me less scared...well I think I do. I have this overwhelming sense of calm this time, not always by any means, but 98% of the time I have no fears or worries about her making it here to be with us. This is the first time things have been purchased to bring home a baby...we never even attempted this with either of the other pregnancies. I wonder if God was somehow telling us to wait with the first 2 saying "don't buy anything that will make you sad when you don't bring this baby home..." It would have torn me up to see a crib or clothes or something when I came home after having Isaiah or home from my D and C with Baby #1. It was hard enough just seeing an empty room.
This is such a different feeling in my heart, head, in my whole being. We have her crib, dressers, clothes, car seat, and pack and play already (granted the clothes and pack and play were given by a very excited grandmother to be). We are more than ready to meet her. Aaron was putting together her dresser on Sunday and when he was done he looked at me and said "I am going to be beyond angry of something goes wrong this time, now that all this is done" I looked at him and with the most confidence I have ever had said..."she's coming" I just know God is going to let us keep her, I just know! I feel her move around constantly, she is getting so active and strong. She has a couple amazing guardian angels looking out for her and God has answered our prayers.
"We prayed for this child and the Lord has granted us what we asked of Him.” – I Samuel 1:27